posted 03-15-2001 10:30 AM            

He is questiong his sanity - wanted to run things past me about a cheating/jealousy problem he's having and is trying to find out if it's him or her. I think I set his mind at ease about his sanity as far as the jealousy - he's found himself a real live one and it sounds like he has every reason to be jealous and all the while she is trying to make him feel like it's him. I'm trying not to feel too sorry for him. He got himself into this.

I did tell him I thought he was nuts for getting married so soon (was the ink dry on our divorce papers?). We were married for 15 years and have been apart for 2 years. He said he has issues about his mortality and being alone. (I think he thought he found someone else to take care of him and it's backfiring on him - she won't give him a divorce).

I feel so strange about this with mixed emotions of feeling sorry for him and saying HAH. It's like some crazy dream. In another way it makes me feel so normal...and strong since I am surviving on my own. I don't want to be alone either, but I'm not willing to jump from the frying pan into the fire!!

how bizarre....how bizarre